Hey everyone,
I've been well, and I hope you have too. I recently had my advising appointment to talk about classes I plan to take next semester and it went very well. I am actually excited to start next semester and get this one over with.
However, as you can tell by the title of this post, I did not want to talk about school on this blog post. I wanted to talk about jealousy. Today, I went shopping with my grandma, my cousin and her 11 month old baby. I was so incredibly excited for today, but it turned out a lot different than I planned. I was so happy to finally have a day to spend with my grandma because I hardly ever see her. Yet, after today, I'm a lot more sad than I thought I would be. I realized today, that my grandma really doesn't even know me. It's not like it's her fault. I've been the busy one. It still hurts.
Today I was also upset because my baby cousin was the center of my grandma's attention. I completely get it because he's a blond baby boy with big blue eyes and dimples, but still. Not only did I realize my grandma doesn't even know a lot about me, but she also was so distracted by the baby, that it seemed like she didn't even care to learn more about me.
I love my grandma and my baby cousin, I just can't help but feel jealous. I'm so tired of being the nice one who is always swept under the rug and ignored and forgotten. I know everyone I love means well, and they probably don't even realize I feel like this, and I know I should tell them or they will never know. Yet I'm stubborn and just once, I wish someone knew me so well that they could just tell when I'm sad or that I'm feeling left out.
I'm sorry, readers. I don't mean to make this post all sentimental and depressing. Sometimes I've just got to get these feelings out. Thanks for reading, If anyone has any advice or has been in a similar situation, please feel free to comment. Well, that's all for now. Thanks again.
Until Tomorrow,
SimplyMe
