Hey everyone,
I've been well, and I hope you have too. I recently had my advising appointment to talk about classes I plan to take next semester and it went very well. I am actually excited to start next semester and get this one over with.
However, as you can tell by the title of this post, I did not want to talk about school on this blog post. I wanted to talk about jealousy. Today, I went shopping with my grandma, my cousin and her 11 month old baby. I was so incredibly excited for today, but it turned out a lot different than I planned. I was so happy to finally have a day to spend with my grandma because I hardly ever see her. Yet, after today, I'm a lot more sad than I thought I would be. I realized today, that my grandma really doesn't even know me. It's not like it's her fault. I've been the busy one. It still hurts.
Today I was also upset because my baby cousin was the center of my grandma's attention. I completely get it because he's a blond baby boy with big blue eyes and dimples, but still. Not only did I realize my grandma doesn't even know a lot about me, but she also was so distracted by the baby, that it seemed like she didn't even care to learn more about me.
I love my grandma and my baby cousin, I just can't help but feel jealous. I'm so tired of being the nice one who is always swept under the rug and ignored and forgotten. I know everyone I love means well, and they probably don't even realize I feel like this, and I know I should tell them or they will never know. Yet I'm stubborn and just once, I wish someone knew me so well that they could just tell when I'm sad or that I'm feeling left out.
I'm sorry, readers. I don't mean to make this post all sentimental and depressing. Sometimes I've just got to get these feelings out. Thanks for reading, If anyone has any advice or has been in a similar situation, please feel free to comment. Well, that's all for now. Thanks again.
Until Tomorrow,
SimplyMe
Hello a child of God. I am so glad to know you thorugh your profile on the blogger and the blog post. I am so glad to stop by and go through your blog post on Jealousy.It is good to get your feeling out which gives you relief. I am blessed to get connected with you because of who you are in the Lord Jesus Christ. I am a Pastor from Mumbai, India and have a deep desire to get connectect with the people of God around the globe to be encouaraged, strengthen and pray for one another. I have been in the Pasororal ministry for last 37yrs in this great city of Mumbai a city with gret contrast where richest of rich and the poorest of poor live. We reach out to the poorest of poor with the love of Christ to bring healing to the broken hearted. We also encourage young and the adults from the west to come to Mumbai to work with us durng their vacation time. We would love to have you come to Mumbai to work with us during your vacation time. Looking forward to hear from you very soon. My email id is : dhwankhede(at)gmail(dot)com and my name is Diwakar Wankhede. Looking forward to hear from you very soon. God's richest blessings on you.
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